Obsessive. Compulsive. Perfectionist. Idealist. Introvert. Nerd. Weird. Naive. Enthusiast.
Having something that you never wished, hoped or imagined for is what 2015 is all about for me.
I still remember clearly 1 year ago how i wished to stop time and not let 2015 come.
2015 is the scariest roller coaster I’ve ever tried so far where rejections, failures, challenging challenges, anxiety, fears, losses were continuous and seem to never end all throughout. But the scariest part was when I tried to let go and felt nothing. Let go and felt nothing…felt nothing…
Thus, I am scared. I am truly terrified to go down this ride and proceed with the next one.
Thoughts running through my head for the past weeks:
-“ang daming demands…”
-“nakakapagod”
-“mej unfair”
-“hindi na ako nakakanood ng running man/aldub/other kpop shows”
-“it feels weird when people compliment you”
-“parang hindi meant to be”
-“wala akong maisip para matulungan sila mama at papa”
-“bakit andami kong nakikitang butterflies? May mangyayari ba na hindi okay?”
-“ang hirap magturo ng 6 na sections”
-“hindi ko na ata trabaho yun”
-“gusto ko ng matapos pero parang walang chance”
-“andami nilang gusto para sa akin at hindi ko alam if gusto ko din yun”
-“ang dami kong students tapos gusto nila kilala ko silang lahat”
-“andami kong kailangan gawin, pero parang ayaw ko silang gawin”
-“bakit sobrang hirap lagi nung akin?”
-“4 na beses na akong nakareceive ng rejection letters ngayong taon, sana wag ng madagdagan”
-“gusto kong umiyak pero walang time”
…so…yeah…
“..patawarin mo ako sa ‘di ko pagtahan, at patatawarin kita sa ‘di mo pagluha..
..patawarin mo ako sa ‘di ko pagbitiw, at patatawarin kit sa ‘di mo pagkapit..
..ito na ang huling tula na isinulat ko para sa ’yo”
Reblogged from yunhoparadise
http://elitedaily.com/dating/guys-girls-can-just-friends-will-fall/1008251/
has been a specialty of mine for the past years.
Reblogged from alwaysh7hr
The
adorableMaster
Definitely one of the cutest fictional CEO created